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Hello A/all,

It seems somewhat incredible to me that i was able to last this long as nothing more than my Lady's ATM, but yet, here i am, a month anniversary of the very day when it started. When i begged, and was granted this rare privilege of being Her little ATM piglette, totally ignored and denied Her precious direct attention, having no depth or purpose other than to be here for Her to withdraw cash for Her and Her Master's use. A week into it, i begged for Her to extend it beyond just a temporary playtime, as it was always in the past, begged Her to alter O/our relationship so that this is the natural order of things, with safewords available if it becomes too much for me to bear Her lack of attention. So far, so good. She has used an intermediary, first one, now a new one, who is there to provide me with a little attention (Lady Deidre is always filled with compassion, even toward inanimate objects like a cash machine, thankfully!), and also to be able to convey messages from Her to me, or vice versa, as my Lady may or may not read any emails i send to Her, i'll never truly know.

i love how She uses me this way, and treasure every blessed moment of it. In fact, i'm down on my knees daily, giving Her praise and professing my complete devotion to Her. Of course, it matters not what i do or say, as long as every time She pushes the buttons, $$ comes out into Her pretty, sweet hands. Where i'm concerned, that's the only thing that matters. The only reason i exist. i adore Her!

i hope A/all have a wonderful weekend!

Lady Deidre's devoted ATM whore piglette

Hello A/all,

i've been used by Lady Deidre as nothing more than Her ATM for two weeks now, with no end in sight. Of course there is no end. This is my destiny, it always was. i was just either too blind, or could not find the right person to use me this way, before. i've found the right person this time, the person who can use all my hard-earned money for Her Master, for Herself, and for anything She damn well pleases, and i love, totally LOVE, every moment of it! i hope that She continues using and plundering and raping and pillaging forever!!! And ignoring....i'm nothing to Her. Nothing but an ATM to be used, to be drained, to be raped. i adore Her for every withdrawal, She is so wonderful to use me in this way!

i hope A/all are having a great day!

Lady Deidre's devoted sissy ATM whore

Greetings A/all,

my wonderful Lady Deidre is so sweet and kind as She is continuing to use me with no regard for anything other than this one function: withdrawing $$ from my account, taking all my hard-earned cash and totally ignoring me in every way while She does so. Which reinforces my uselessness as anything other than a human cash machine, to be drained by Her upon Her whim. She has made some withdrawals "just because She can", other times, She has had me pay for the offers made to real men on Her NF lines---paying for pics, mp3's and free minutes, so that THEY can enjoy listening to Her and spending time with Her, while i'm denied even the limited contact i'm usually privileged to have, just email contact, but even that is restricted now. i adore Her for this and love being used by Her in this way so much, that before the end of the week, i begged Her to please consider altering O/our relationship on an indefinite basis, essentially reversing the time spent as Her ATM, with time spent where She is more present in my life, in a more caring way, as a friend, confidante, and Mistress, where there is more contact and i'm treated more like the little innocent sissy i am and not as harshly as when i'm an ATM. Rather spend more of my time serving as an ATM, and less of the other, though when either of U/us wants that. i have a safeword to use if i miss Her too much or my money just isn't going to last or be available. So far i've only used another word that i didn't prepare for, just a slow down indicator, but please don't stop! :) This is a new phase of my journey in Her service and in my overall growth as a submissive. And i'm thoroughly grateful to Her, from the bottom of my heart!!
Thank You, dearest Lady Deidre!!

Lady Deidre's devoted ATM whore piglette

That's me....right now, i'm nothing but an ATM. i shouldn't even be writing this, as it earns no money for my Lady, but i know it will ultimately please Her to see that i'm sharing my current status with A/all, and will provide perhaps amusement to Her and Her friends who might read this. She continues to use me, now offering free goodies to men on NF, but of course, they are not free--these mp3's and photo sets, are being paid for by me every time some man takes advantage of Her offer. i love how i'm paying for the pleasure that other men will enjoy of hearing Her luscious voice and seeing Her gorgeous body, both treats with i'm perpetually denied (or only allowed on the rarest of occasions, and not for a long, long time). All while completely ignoring me. She is having a friend of hers communicate with me, so that i'm not completely cut off, as my Lady is completely ignoring all communication at present. Via this friend, i discovered that thanks to Her using me as Her ATM, She was able to relax yesterday evening, not work the phones, and lounge in the pool and provide pleasure for Her Master. Both seem to be enjoying using me this way, and though i have a safeword, i love knowing that She hopes i do not use it. i love Her dark side, and love being used as an ATM by a slave, as She is...my wonderful Lady!

She is truly a Goddess, and i adore every bit of Her. And love being nothing more than a cash machine for Her, to work and labor while She and Her Master extract all the fruits of that labor and laugh and make love and share their happiness with each other while i continue to work and am happy that they are happy!

i hope A/all have a wonderful day!

Lady Deidre's devoted ATM whore

i continued to serve my Lady as nothing more than an ATM cash machine throughout the weekend, with my Lady making withdrawals for various things She purchased throughout the weekend, i love being there in use for Her in this way. She also made a couple of withdrawals that thoroughly excited me, one was a gratitude fee for another financial tribute i made which was more in the way of a gift, and to thank me, she made a withdrawal of more $$. i loved that! Also just before bed, i assume, she made a withdrawal "just because She can". i adore that! i begged Her to continue using me in this way indefinitely as long as it pleases Her...and to actually make the withdrawals (gave Her the password) without having to send me withdrawals, only the receipt notices. She may or may not do that, but i begged Her to only if it would please and excite Her. And all this time, i'm completely ignored by Her, no contact other than the withdrawal notices, and She has Her email set to send me automated humiliating messages. i adore Her!!!

Hope A/all have a wonderful day!

Lady Deidre's devoted sissy ATM whore

Hello A/all,

my first day is not over yet, but as of midnight last night, i became nothing more to my Lady than Her ATM...nothing more than a cash machine from which She can withdraw money as She sees fit, with no thought about me in any other way about me than for that simple and very efficient use. The first was for some free minutes She provided a caller on NF---i'm sure She realizes also how much that taps into my cuckold and denial yearnings, i'm very grateful to Her for that! This morning, She made another withdrawal for a matinee plus parking fees. i LOVE being treated in this way, and i cannot tell anyone who may read this how deeply appreciative i am to my Lady for being so wonderful as to treat me in this way....oh, and the only communication is the withdrawal notice, nothing else. i'm totally ignored in every other way by Her. So delicious!

Hope A/all have a wonderful day!

Lady Deidre's devoted sissy whore ATM

Greetings A/all,

i'm so sorry i've been away so long, not posting, but have been so crazy busy. That will still be the case, so i won't be posting lengthy messages, but my wonderful Lady Deidre, who is so kind to me to still be my Domme and Queen, would like for me to briefly post occasional updates of what types of play, if any, W/we engage in.

Last night, i was required to squirt in a particular fashion. i was to draw a glass of warm water, and imagine it was the blessed golden nectar of my wonderful Lady, and lay in a tub, pouring it over my body, and then stroke my little clitty until it squirted, taking the worthless seed and spreading it over my sissy flesh like a lotion. i did so, and wished that my Lady were there, and that She was using me as Her urinal, covering my eyes, so that i could not see Her gorgeous body as She did so. Mmmmm...lovely thoughts! This was the first time i have been permitted to squirt my worthlessness for quite a long time. Slightly over a month's time. It's wonderful to be chaste for my Lady, as She so enjoys denying me.

i begged of Her to use me as nothing more than an ATM. She has agreed, i believe, and will be arranging to send me withdrawal notices, or Her Master will, or a female friend of Her choosing...but i will be ignored any other attention, only used as nothing more than an ATM!!!! i adore Her for doing this, and for offering me the privilege of being used by Her as nothing more than an ATM for a period of time, and ignoring/denying me Her wonderful attention in every other way!

Hope A/all are well and happy!

Lady Deidre's devoted sissy pet, stacie

Hello A/all,

my apologies for not being around much lately. my wonderful Lady has given me permission to lay low a bit here, but hope that A/all who are on my friends list and who read my journal are doing well! i will try to catch up on reading all of Yours soon.

i thought i would keep up with 'teenie weenie Tuesday' though, and fortunately my internet connection is working this morning after being out all day yesterday. And my Lady wants me to post a sissy voice post soon, as well. *blush*

Well, in order to actually see my little worthless nub, these might come in handy, perhaps more than one:



my Lady is wonderful, always making me remind myself and share this knowledge, about my tiny, worthless little weenie. Thank You, dearest Lady!

i hope A/all have a really wonderful day!

Lady Deidre's devoted sissy pet, stacie

With much graciousness, my wonderful Lady Deidre allowed this little sissy a break from LJ and various other things, but now time to get back into the swing of things. First, i hope that A/all have had a wonderful holiday time with friends, family and loved ones, and that A/all will have a safe, healthy, prosperous and happy new year!!!

To commemorate the return of teenie weenie tuesday, here is a pic that depicts what a woman would do when confronted with my worthless little thing...all it's good for is a laugh!



Hope A/all are having a laugh and a wonderful day!

Lady Deidre's devoted little dicklet sissy pet, stacie